Tonight
Because I could
See
I wished on a star.

it seems that neither slow and steady nor jumping off bridges seems to
work. i had careful and clear articulated needs and i earnestly rolled
up my sleeves and started to build. no, not walls but a way forward, i
thought that i was preparing for something and working through the
bumps and bruises. it wasn't fast enough and now i've got plans and
words to pack up.

i'm sick of chemicals. i'm sick of fogs
and muted. i sucumb to weakness and sought strength outside myself,
when i know full well i don't need it. i recover my strength, wanting
to share and i turn to nothing.

i let go of so many fears, losened grips on all i was afraid of. i
leapt, everyday, towards something, but it went without notice. it was
not enough.

just when i started to feel whole again, to fill pages and canvass and
create and grow and to experience opportunity, I know where I will go.

"Be still when you have nothing to say; when genuine passion moves you, say what you've got to say, and say it hot." D.H. Lawrence 

i played make believe in the northeast
and ran away, sheltered in a snowstorm.
with my eyes closed, i slept
next to you
under a moonlit, star-studded sky.
in my dreams
i've held your body
as you dance across photographs.
you've shared stories and pictures,
but i've never been to
Greece.

Visions from a bike ride

Chasing rust

It happened when I was painting...

Kinda like it as a tattoo...random.

Bright Eyes A New Arrangement

If you could change your days
Arranging them in some sweet new sequence
Like any new arrangement's gonna make a difference
'Cause it's the moment that you're living in
And not the one that follows
That makes this mess you're cleaning in your head
And time still drags you forward
Though you keep resisting
Know it's what you leave behind
You'll soon start missing and the people you once counted on
Now say it's all depending on how you act and how you treat yourself
And that's not very well
So baby, when I call for you
I want you to come explain yourself to everyone
You nod in an acknowledgment of your frequent mood swings
Yeah what good's an acknowledgment
It still don't change things
We tried all forms of encouragement
But it's still no better
You just can't seem to fake or force a smile
Not even a little one
But baby, when I call for you
I want you to come and lay it out for everyone
Exactly how it was before any of this happened
And why you can't leave it behind
Now don't just, don't just sit there when I call to you
I told you to come and lay it out for
Don't feel awkward
Lay it out for everyone