Thursday, May 26, 2011

The Ladder Song

too many favorite lines. probably my favorite track off the new album. a good one.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Missed the Boat

While we're on the subject
Could we change the subject now?
I was knocking on your ear's door but you were always out
Looking towards the future
We were begging for the past
Well we knew we had the good things
But those never seemed to last
Oh please just last

Everyone's unhappy
Everyone's ashamed
Well we all just got caught looking
At somebody else's page
Well nothing ever went
Quite exactly as we planned
Our ideas held no water
But we used them like a dam

Oh, and we carried it all so well
As if we got a new position
Oh, and I laugh all the way to hell
Saying yes, this is a fine promotion
Oh, and I laugh all the way to hell

Of course everyone goes crazy
Over such and such and such
We made ourselves a pillar
We just used it as a crutch
We were certainly uncertain
At least I'm pretty sure I am
Well we didn't need the water
But we just built that good God dam

Oh, and I know this of myself
I assume as much for other people
Oh, and I know this of myself
We've listened more to life's end gong
Than the sound of life's sweet bliss

Was it ever worth it?
Was there all that much to gain?
Well we knew we missed the boat
And we'd already missed the plane
We didn't read the invite
We just dance at our wake
All our favorites were playing
So we could shake, shake, shake, shake, shake

Tiny curtains open and we heard the tiny clap of little hands
A tiny man would tell a little joke and get a tiny laugh from all the folks
Sitting drifting around in bubbles and thinking it was us that carried them
When we finally got it figured out that we had truly missed the boat

Oh, and we carried it all so well
As if we got a new position
Oh, and we owned all the tools ourselves
But not the skills to make a shelf with
Oh, what useless tools ourselves

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Remember my Brother; Support my Sister

Dear Friends:

Today, my older brother Michael would be 39. On January 1, 1989 he took his own life. This year, for the second year, my older sister Kati is walking in the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention, Out of Darkness Walk - me and my 4 year old niece Cailynn will be cheering her on. I am writing to ask you to make a donation to help her reach her goal of $2200 ($100 for every year he's been gone). You can make a donation here.

Consider making a donation of:

‎$5 to remember the month he was born
$16 for how many years he lived
$18 for how many miles Kati will walk in his memory
$22 to remember the day he was born
$22 for how many years he's been gone
$24 for the house number where we lived
$39 to remember how old he would have been TODAY
$49 to remember he was born in Alaska
$72 to remember the year he was born
$86 to remember when he graduated 8th grade
$304 for all of these and more
$___ for your own special reason

I was only 9 when Michael passed away, but in those 9 years he made a huge impact on me. He painted, played music, and was a great soccer player - this is what my 9 year old self remembers. What my adult self knows is that his memory lives on in so many people and in many ways. My hope is that by supporting an organization like AFSP other sisters, brothers, moms, dads, nieces, nephews, aunts, uncles, and friends do not have to know this loss.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart,


Saturday, May 21, 2011

California Stars

this song always makes me smile.